Breakout

I have been asking myself recently what is it exactly that I'm fighting, what is it that is pressing in on me inextricably holding me in place. The fear of this battle encourages stagnation, hiding from the enemy only to look up and see them staring down on me. I run, try again to escape … Continue reading Breakout

Stimming: We’re more alike than you may think.

Stimming is short for self-stimulating, which doesn’t sound great so you can see why it is shortened to stimming. A quick Google search (other search engines are available) will tell you that stimming is repetitive movements, sounds or use of objects. So that’s straight forward then what else is there to say? Well quite a … Continue reading Stimming: We’re more alike than you may think.

The different versions of Me

There is only one you, so they say. Well that may be true but it's not the whole picture. There's the me at home, at work, in public and a thousand variations on this theme. This is the case for everyone I suppose, something we all share to some degree is the adaptation of our … Continue reading The different versions of Me

Descending Into Hell

I think it may be that I'm happier today than I have been for a longtime. That's not to say that getting through the day is a breeze, it's not. The world is still tiring and there are days when I feel there is a sneak thief stealing my spoons (Spoon Theory). The difference is … Continue reading Descending Into Hell

Climbing Out of Hell

I always heard that you hit rock bottom and then you could start the climb back up. It hasn't been like that for me, I was still falling, in fact Im not sure there is a bottom just the never ending decent. Does this fall lead anywhere or are there just stops along the way … Continue reading Climbing Out of Hell

Trauma, Autism and an Attachment Disorder

Trauma and the Stress Response Can everyone experience trauma? If so are some more susceptible than others? On the surface these questions are fairly straightforward, yes everyone one can be traumatised and there are a significant number of risk factors that not only make it more likely that you will experience trauma but that also … Continue reading Trauma, Autism and an Attachment Disorder

Reverse-engineering our #autistic rage

Aspie Under Your Radar

person screaming We all have very good reasons to be enraged.

Over the past few months, I’ve noticed an “uptick” in the online autistic community drama levels. Of course, it could just be me… I haven’t been active in the autistic “scene” for years, until last spring. I gave it a whirl, back in the late 1990s, and again about 10 years ago, but the drama drove me away. I have a busy life with a lot of responsibilities that most folks don’t bother with and have no idea about, and I just haven’t got time for the drama.

Now, again, it starts. I see other people tweeting about it, blogging about it, emailing me about it. Ugh. It’s just so … awkward and painful and illogical, which for me is the equivalent of being flayed alive. Why can’t we all just get along?

Well, I’m pretty tired of feeling ill, every…

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