I Still Don’t Know if I’m Happy

I've been trying to figure out lately what happy is so I can know if it describes me. Now I have a very clear idea of what it means to be unhappy in fact I know what it means to be crushingly miserable but this is not about that. This is about happy, something that … Continue reading I Still Don’t Know if I’m Happy

Things I Like part 2

So its time for part 2 of my list of things I like, try and bare with me through this as some might be a little left field. Firtst up.   My Pillow Now remember I said some were left field, this one comes with a history, I am 41 years old and have never … Continue reading Things I Like part 2

Things I like

This is not as you may have thought a blog about things I like to do like say sailing, swimming or skydiving. (I don't like skydiving but was on a role with S's)No this is part one of the things I like to do such as particular stims, I will included what I like about … Continue reading Things I like

Dropping Out

For the last week and a half I have as much as possible dropped out, devoting what spoons I have to the essentials to get through the day. This is largely due to the avalanche of problems that hit in one week from which I am yet to recover and in part because of the … Continue reading Dropping Out

Breakout

I have been asking myself recently what is it exactly that I'm fighting, what is it that is pressing in on me inextricably holding me in place. The fear of this battle encourages stagnation, hiding from the enemy only to look up and see them staring down on me. I run, try again to escape … Continue reading Breakout

Stimming: We’re more alike than you may think.

Stimming is short for self-stimulating, which doesn’t sound great so you can see why it is shortened to stimming. A quick Google search (other search engines are available) will tell you that stimming is repetitive movements, sounds or use of objects. So that’s straight forward then what else is there to say? Well quite a … Continue reading Stimming: We’re more alike than you may think.

The different versions of Me

There is only one you, so they say. Well that may be true but it's not the whole picture. There's the me at home, at work, in public and a thousand variations on this theme. This is the case for everyone I suppose, something we all share to some degree is the adaptation of our … Continue reading The different versions of Me