Autism, Mental Health, Poetry, Trauma

My Box

Sorry bad sad poetry follows, I am feeling low and need to get it out.   I have pushed back, I have fought hard. It’s never ending, it flows on and on. But there is always the box.   I am retreating, I am worn down. It is encompassing, it is pushing me to the … Continue reading My Box

Autism, Mental Health

Something is not Nothing

I find that I am often drawn to the more pessimistic possibilities when approaching something that is anxiety provoking. This is in no way help by the fact that when confronted by something new or different or scary I have to know all there is to know. When this coincides with a new interest or … Continue reading Something is not Nothing

Autism

You see what you want to see

So the month of Autism Awareness/Acceptance is nearly at and end for another year and at some point we will hear about how successful the campaign has been. For me in the UK this will be from the National Autistic Society, they have been running the "To Much Information" campaign and recently have focused on … Continue reading You see what you want to see

Autism, Mental Health

What’s going on?

I would never claim that I have a hard life or that things are unfair, whilst it certainly isn't easy and there have been some straight up horrible bits, I am in many ways incredibly lucky. That said I feel like I'm on a bungee cord above the opening of a volcano, one minute I … Continue reading What’s going on?

Lifestyle, Mental Health, Positive

Fun, Fitness and Pain.

Sometime your mind and body do not agree and for me that is defiantly what is happening. Now I'm not old by any stretch of the imagination at least I'm not if your an adult, the children I work with think I'm ancient. The grey is starting to appear in my beard and I've been … Continue reading Fun, Fitness and Pain.

Autism, Emotions, Mental Health

I Still Don’t Know if I’m Happy

I've been trying to figure out lately what happy is so I can know if it describes me. Now I have a very clear idea of what it means to be unhappy in fact I know what it means to be crushingly miserable but this is not about that. This is about happy, something that … Continue reading I Still Don’t Know if I’m Happy